Monday, April 11, 2011
Today is the day I finally decided that I am going to get on top of this thing, the thing that controls my life every day, this thing - my weight which stops me from living the life I want. I have been overweight since I was about 7 or 8, Im not sure how my problem with eating started but my mum tells me that at about the age of 7 I started to sneak food from the kitchen and over time began to pile on the weight - I feel for my parents because I dont think they knew what to do or how to handle this situation. When I left highschool I was about 90kg, by the time I finished university I was 128kg, this was the time I first went to weight watchers after the insitance of my mum - she came with me the first time and stayed with me for the meeting I can remember being close to tears and dying of embarrassment. I went for a few weeks alone and then found a friend that wanted to go and we went together - I lost 15kg over the next few months and started to get comments that I was looking good . Shortly after I moved across the Tasman to Australia to start my nursing career, over the next 2 years the weight piled on again until I was about 130kg in Ocober 2010. I met a man at that time who made me feel good about myself the weight didnt seem to bother him and in between spending time with him and unconsciously exercising more and eating a bit better and not even thiking about my weight I lost 11kg in 3 weeks - I thought how was that so easy! I kept it off for a few months - but after the relationship ended and I moved towns and jobs I have again found that Im starting to pile on the kilos again. I have decided enough is enough. I want to live a happy and healthy life and not have to worry about whether perhaps the aeroplane seat belt might not fit this time or that my weight might be too high to go horse riding or to do some of the things I love. I have not been a normal weight since I was 7, I am now 25, So my aim in this is to be under 100kg by the end of this year and then my goal weight of 68kg in 2 years, I have started this blog to at least make myself accountable to someone, I will post my weight once a week on Mondays and plan to post a photo once a month to show my progress. I welcome any positive comments and ideas.